mud of loneliness

I’m destined to be in SORROW,
Blinded by LOVE,
Longing for AFFECTION,
Reaching the STARS,
Begging for SMILES,
Wrapped by ILLUSIONS,
Imagining KISSES,
Dreaming for TOUCHES,
Hiding PAIN and ANGER,
Eaten by FRUSTRATIONS…..

But still…
Waiting for someone who will dig me from the MUD I am in right now……

YoU'Re SuCh A LiEr!!!!

Practically EVERYONE knew about your freakin’ lie BUT ME! You made me look like an idiot! You made everyone close to me lie to ME??? You made my FRIENDS lie for you!!! How can you do that?? How can you lie ONE TOO MANY TIMES to my face and to my close friend’s face??? How can you make me choose who to trust when you were FUCKIN’ lyin’ between your teeth??? How can you even think of promising things when you were FAKE from the start??? How can you even expect to be given a second chance when I gave you more than one (which you didn’t deserve it in the first place) and wasted it over and over with your lies?? You’re a COWARD!! A LIAR!! You’re SELFISH!!! All you can think about is your HAPPINES!!

WHAT IF…LOVE IS…????

What if …
you don’t
believe in love?


What if…
You met someone
Whose meant
To teach
You how?

What if…
You fall
For him?

Yet he was
Just meant to
Teach you….

JUST TO TEACH YOU….

I Love You, Goodbye...

I love you so much but I have to do this.
As much as I don’t want to, but that’s the only way
I can do, to set you free from my unconditional love…
Because there comes a time that we have to stop
Loving someone not because that person has
Stopped loving us, but because we found out that
They’d be happier if we let them go….
Just like what I feel with you right now…
I hate to say this, but….
I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE

What does your birth month reveal about you?

January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking andproductive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.


February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent andclever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.


March
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented.Loves special things. Moody.


April
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret.Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their luver can see.


May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.


June
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite andsoft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easilyhurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.


July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studyin


August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .


September
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisureand traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.


October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn'tpretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.


November
Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinkforward. Unique. brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Dont appreciate praises. Highspirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keepsecrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.


December
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

sO iN-LoVe

I'm gin' out with someone else lately...

and I'm attracted to him so is he...

but the problem is...

I'm too scared to fall in-love again...

I've been in a lot of failed relationships and I don't want...

to feel the pain that I've experienced before...

If only I could ignore this feeling that I've right now...

“Why?”

Is this love? Every time that I’m with you I feel awkward. There’s this feeling that I can’t understand. I really hate you for everything that you’ve done to me. He keeps on bullying me all the time. Bragging that you are always correct and I am not. I was so traumatized with all the things that you’ve said and done to me. But every time you’re doing all that to me I feel different. Why just can I hate you forever? Why do I have to feel this happy feeling? Why?

It’s like, every time you’re hurting me, I feel that I’m in heaven…
Call it pathetic but its true…

I hate you but I love you….

SOONER OR LATER

Sooner or later, every married man meets Kristi. You know Kristi. She's right over there in the next cubicle. She's your neighbor.

Or your best friend's sister.God, she's just . . . great, you say to yourself. So friendly, so cute, so upbeat. You're thinking about her.

Okay, you've started to fantasize. Just a little. And you suspect she's fantasizing about you, because when you saw her yesterday, there was that . . . moment. Not to sound corny, but it was a moment of reckoning. She looked into your eyes and didn't look away.

Finally, it's started to dawn on you: You've got something she wants.And you're tempted to give it to her.All right, deep breath: You didn't embark on the journey of marriage with the idea that you'd get to take a few detours, and you certainly didn't think you'd turn into one of "those guys."

But then, most men don't. They have stumbled accidentally onto their own little Temptation Island. There they are, standing helplessly in its spell and face-to-face with what the nuns in parochial school used to call "an occasion of sin."

But what do nuns know about love? This can't be sin; it doesn't feel the least bit sinful. She's a sweet, smiling, loving person; in a way, your friendly banter reminds you of the kind of talks you used to have with your wife-before all that baggage got in the way. And you think to yourself, Why does everybody else get to have all the fun? Why can't I join the club?You can.

You da man! And I'm going to lay it all out for you, step by step. Your fling with Kristi will pass through four stages. Stage One is…

ATTRACTION

I'm guessing you work with Kristi. Most affairs begin at the office.

Work is where you are a master, where you shine, where you are plugged into all your power sources. You do what you do with skill, confidence, and humor. Women want that in a guy.

Toss into that mix a wardrobe of suits, ties, short skirts, and high heels, and it's no wonder so many romances blossom in the workplace. And lately Kristi seems to be in no hurry to go home at night.Time to bump it up a notch.It all starts so innocently.

You trade notes and silly e-mails. You both show up at the same after-work gatherings. You grab a bite for lunch. But when you start meeting for drinks, you're both hunting for something. She orders a Sex on the Beach and makes a little joke. My friend, your plane is number one for takeoff.

A hungry itch comes over you, and you will not be denied. It's time for Stage Two…

ECSTASY

You haven't felt like this since high school. Actually, you never felt like this in high school, because the girls were more interested in the jocks and the heads.

But it does feel like you're in love for the very first time. You're on cloud nine.

The drink-after-work thing has turned into bottles of Dom Perignon. Kisses have become Kama Sutra positions.

At the No-Tell Motel, the two of you engage in idle postcoital pillow talk about going somewhere beautiful together, like Paris. You can't even pronounce "croissant," but you're dreaming of Paris.The rest of your life is on autopilot. Your boss is dropping dark hints about how "distracted" you seem lately. Big deal.

You're in love. Nothing and no one can stand between you!Well, except for your wife and kids. But let's not get ahead of our story.

Is the sex better? Of course it's better. It's new. Nothing beats new sex—the exploration of her every inch, the discovery and mapping and conquest of her sweet spots. Nothing is better than the praise she lavishes.

Nothing makes you hotter than seeing her so aroused.

And this is not just new sex, my friend; this is illicit sex—which is way steamier. The added elements of secrecy and danger are time-honored ways to heighten arousal. (Every member of the Mile-High Club can tell you that.)The secrecy is so much fun that most couples having affairs ignore the obvious: Everyone knows.

EVERYONE. It's such fine sport to watch lovers deluding themselves with the belief that they're being perfectly discreet.

Meanwhile, they glow like those radioactive monsters in Japanese sci-fi flicks of the '50s. Frankly, you're starting to draw a crowd.Inevitably, that leads to Stage Three…

COMPLICATION

One Monday morning, you get the e-mail you've been dreading."We MUST talk. Lunch?"Kristi pours out a long, sad story of a hellish weekend.

She says Steve suspects. He was in a rage. It's only because of heavy makeup that you can't see how hard he had slapped her. You're thinking, That's not something makeup can cover.

She's saying she needs to get out of her marriage. You'll help her, won't you, honey?

She looked at an apartment early this morning before work, and it's great -- right near here! -- but they want 2 months' rent up front. If you could put down the two grand…You got your American Express bill on Saturday. It's for $3,614.28. You don't have $3,614.28. You don't have two grand.

And you thought love was free.You fall silent. Now she's looking at you.

She wasn't ready for this silence. You weren't ready for this moment.That's one sob story; there are a million others. They all have the same plot development: You're about to be discovered.

And the offended parties in these instances rarely take the news lying down. Usually they suffer as loudly as they can.You're pressured to break up with her. She's wondering whether to break up with you—or him. Are you ready for that? No, you're not ready for that.

You realize, a little late, that you're not ready for any of that. Soon after complication comes Stage Four…

REMORSE AND MAYHEM

This stage is summarized in a single question:

How the hell did I get myself into this?Sometimes the only thing worse than getting caught is not getting caught.

The good news is, you get away with it. And the bad news is, you get away with it. Kristi is really starting to annoy you, but you're too weak to give up the extra sex.

You turn passive, and in response she becomes persistent. You're wondering how to get rid of her. She's wondering when you're going to leave your wife for her, the way you sort of hinted you would...didn't you?She knows where you work, where you live.

She knows where your wife works. Your dilemma is clear:

To extricate yourself from this relationship, you're going to have to break the heart of the one person who can destroy you with a phone call.That's if it ever gets to that stage.

More likely, you'll be caught. In which case, one of two things will happen. You'll get divorced or stay married. If you get divorced, prepare to be broke and lonely.

If you stay married, let me ask you something: Do you think your marriage will ever be the same? And if she does stick it out with you, despite the advice of all her friends and family, is it for a good reason, like she really, really loves you? Or is it for a convenient reason, like you make a nice salary?

In any case, patching up the marriage will require major-league groveling on your part. In return, you can expect zero trust, zero slack, and quite possibly a "retaliatory affair" on her part. As for your reputation and good standing with friends, family, and community, well, there will be blood on the floor.

Lucky you if the bleeding is metaphorical. Sometimes, someone goes into a cold, jealous rage. Someone's pride can't handle the idea that his wife cheated on him.

Someone can't face the practical consequences of a wrecked marriage -- selling the house, making child-support payments, facing the nosiness or sympathy of virtual strangers.

Oops. I'm so sorry.You, too.

You were expecting a happy ending.

A HAPPY ending! You are so funny.

This story has been told a million times, in a million ways, for a million years. Never is there a happy ending. But you knew that. Didn't you?